How do I begin? There are so many things in my mind right now. Plenty of thoughts, but nothing I think I would be able to say,feeling like floating in the middle of nowhere. Out of a sudden I start to think about writing this blog. I do not expect to make money out of it or anything. I just hope that after releasing something from my mind I might be inspired by something. If you knew me in person, you would know that I am a very introvert person. I am not very comfortable with strangers (maybe that's why I always stuck with same group of friends for so long and it's not a bad thing). The worst thing is that I hate talking about my own problems to other people. I always try to avoid as much as possible talking to others and keep everything to myself. Sometimes, the thoughts start to accumulate and I start to feel overwhelmed. I always feel insecure about everything. I always question my ability in doing anything. I don't have the confidence or the courage to start doing something I want right away. I know I use the word "always" to much, but this is the reality I have to face. 
I blame everything around me for my failure. Maybe I should stop now and try to think about the way out. I'm sure there are countless thing I can blame on; awful childhood, high expectation from parents, my bad health, etc. I will tell later about from the very beginning of my so-called not so good life. Hopefully, this writing will make me reflex on my mistakes and give me courage.







***English is not my first language, nor i'm good at it. Actually, I am real bad at English writing.